My heart;

Something is telling me to just wait for him until he is ready, but when i look at it he told my own friend that he wasnt ready for a relationship & yet, he's STILL not ready so by this is he EVER going to be? I like him so much, he's an awesome guy & it amazes me about how talented he is. In my myspace blog i said that i wouldnt lock him down, but looking by how much i actually show him attention i guess i would.

but i only understand high school and college are two different things,its harder and its even MORE harder to hold a relationship.

maybe all i should do is just concentrate on top of my own school. but its just so hard to even fathom this, i dont know what to do when im around him because i like him so much. haha. im such a whiner :) i just dont know what what to about my feelings. and what i mean by i dont know what to do when im around him is that i wish that i could talk to him i wish that he would give me the TIME of day. haha but i always chicken out when its time to talk to him


thats CRAZY haha because im never like that.
geeze man thats some crazy STUFF! haha. i dont mean to like him. but i guess thats just the way it is <3